Everything reminds me,
of the things you'd say,
Everything makes me wish,
You were here today.

The undescribable pleasure.
the uncomprehendable pain,
everything you did was either,
a major loss or a significant gain.

I gained from learning,
that love hurts more then anyone could say,
i lost you and the love we had,
you're not here with me today.

I cut myself for you,
i cried every single night,
blood and tears on my pillow,
out of love or out of spite.

I was never this suicidal,
i never really cared,
but i made a cut for every single,
moment that we ever shared.

You said you loved me,
i thought everything was true,
i wish i'd never let myself fall,
so uncontrollably for you.

Your luscious seduction,
your beautiful lies,
i wish now that,
i would've seen it in your eyes.

I never knew you were faking,
when you said you loved me,
i never saw beyond the pleasure,
to the pain that it could be.

I never knew the nights alone,
so sentimental and  real,
could make me cut myself,
and be so afraid to feel.

I'll never love again,
without remembering all we had,
i'll never again get hurt like that,
when i'd so much rather be dead.

I cut myself,
each drop of blood for us,
it still hurts every night,
while our pictures are covered in dust.

I still weep when i'm alone at night,
although you never saw me cry,
i still hide all my emotions,
Like now while i wish to die.